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\"Ashley<\/a>

Ashley McMullen, MD, is a Chief Resident at UCSF in San Francisco, CA<\/p><\/div>\n

Today, I’m thinking about the end of residency. But first, let me tell you about the beginning<\/em> of residency. My first day of clinic, my very first week of residency, I had a grand total of one patient scheduled. A seasoned outgoing resident had given me sign-out on this person, along with some big, knowledgeable shoes to fill. I did my most thorough pre-rounding the evening before. I prepped my note and reviewed the problem list I intended to cover during our visit. Our encounter began with some pleasantries, followed by my well-rehearsed, \u201cWhat brings you in today?\u201d To which my patient replied, \u201cI really just need these forms filled out by a doctor.\u201d <\/span><\/p>\n

\"\"<\/a>\u201cEasy enough, I got this!\u201d I thought to myself. Then I noticed the systolic blood pressure that was charted in the 60s. Suddenly I was staring more closely at the ashen skin, sunken eyes, and listless movements in front of me. However, when asked about this, my patient smiled and shrugged me off like I was hallucinating, then gently pushed the forms towards me. We agreed to start with a brief exam: pale conjunctiva, fast, regular heart beat, exquisitely tender abdomen, with overlying skin that was inflamed and indurated. I proceeded to check my own pulse which was racing, and then left to find an attending. Less than 1 hour later, my patient was admitted to the ICU with septic shock from a large abdominal wall abscess.<\/span><\/p>\n

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\"\"<\/a>I spent a lot of time ruminating on what I could have done differently. Why didn\u2019t I call to check on this individual before the appointment? Why didn\u2019t I notice the blood pressure sooner or get an attending faster? What if the resident who signed out to me finds out their former patient ended up in the ICU after one visit with me? Thankfully, that patient ended up being okay, but it was the first of many experiences that would leave a lasting impact.<\/span><\/p>\n

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UCSF Internal Medicine c\/o 2018 on the last day of intern year (1st year of residency training)<\/p><\/div>\n

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Residency is an interesting phenomenon. It\u2019s like an invisible threshold, where on one side of July 1 you are light and buoyant. On the other, you are weighed down with the responsibility of people\u2019s lives ostensibly placed on your shoulders. Few professions can match the physical and emotional peaks and valleys that define medical training. Friends and family that aren\u2019t in medicine can find it hard to relate the day-to-day life of a resident. Many times, I would come home to random questions about dramatic traumas or steamy call-room encounters (thanks, Grey\u2019s Anatomy!). Therefore, many times, I would have to explain the role of an internist \u2014 that most nights, I\u2019d be lucky just to see the inside of a call room. If I did lay down, it was at the risk of being jolted awake for anything from a cardiac arrest to an FYI page about rabbit allergies.<\/span><\/p>\n

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UCSF Internal Medicine c\/o 2018 nearing the end of residency<\/p><\/div>\n

Currently around the country, thousands of newly matched interns are eagerly crossing that proverbial threshold. On the other side, there awaits experiences that will test the boundaries of their comfort zones and leave them equal parts exhausted and fulfilled. They join other new doctors from various walks of life and form the unyielding bonds of friendship fortified by the shared experience of residency. To borrow the famed quote from Charles Dickens, it is the best of times and the worst of times; and those of us who have already crossed the boundary must continually weigh the virtues of rigorous medical training against the long-lasting impact on physician well-being.<\/p>\n

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As for myself, I have now started my first \u201creal\u201d job since 2011. It\u2019s been an exciting process, but one in which I\u2019ve also had to grapple with my own post-residency syndrome. I look forward to taking some time off to spend with loved ones and reclaim some parts of myself that didn\u2019t quite make the full journey across the threshold 4 years ago.\u00a0<\/span>
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